I could have easily chucked the weights through the window today.... first training without Annie and I felt lost.. almost withdrawal...it sucked and i couldnt get to the result i wanted..... I am not quitting but it just sucked worse than suck could suck!
I got some chest in..but better than none.
hoping for a better day tommorow...
Monday, April 30, 2012
Sunday, April 29, 2012
Fabolous yet exhausting day of Food Prep....
Wow, Sunday is supposed to be a rest/relaxed day but still a Bodybuilders...well
BBIT (Bodybuilder in Training) work is never done.... check out all the fabulousness i worked on...and this is maybe....4 days worth of food!!! yikes... i look greedy huh....but all in a days work and a little ms dash! The George Foreman is amazing for these situations, i have never use it so much until now and i love it!
BBIT (Bodybuilder in Training) work is never done.... check out all the fabulousness i worked on...and this is maybe....4 days worth of food!!! yikes... i look greedy huh....but all in a days work and a little ms dash! The George Foreman is amazing for these situations, i have never use it so much until now and i love it!
Saturday, April 28, 2012
Why Bodybuilding??????
That is a question I get alot, .....most likely because it is not really "encouraged" or necessarily the thing in culture...it is amazing how when you come to the "dark side" you suddenly feel like the only person involved...however this is not the case i find...
It is a lifestyle that is not to be taken lightly but also to be enjoyed because it can be fun and will be fun but initially starting is the HUGE lifestyle change....yes people are amazed, and proud but then there are people who are "negative"...asking why? why?.... but then i want to ask them...
WHY ASK WHY??
and i can only think that they may have their own motive..so be it...but the deeper i get into this, the more i want this lifestyle change more than ever... a lifestyle that involves, exercise...healthy eating, training, competition, PEOPLE , amazing people who never would have crossed paths with you until that one competition or you have the same trainer, or same dietician.....whatever!!
but i almost ask how did i not do this?? How did i not know....well because it is not the "next big thing" but it really is...because there are SOOOOO many men and women involved in this process...IT is the big thing, and will be....as long as there are people out there who want to better themselves and show themselves as wonderful as they can be...
so....why did i get into bodybuilding.... because something brought me to it....it was meant to happen....and i am a strong believer in things happening for a reason....the timing couldnt be more perfect....
and you know what else....
I AM HAPPY.....and i dont think many people in the world can say it genuinely....
It is a lifestyle that is not to be taken lightly but also to be enjoyed because it can be fun and will be fun but initially starting is the HUGE lifestyle change....yes people are amazed, and proud but then there are people who are "negative"...asking why? why?.... but then i want to ask them...
WHY ASK WHY??
and i can only think that they may have their own motive..so be it...but the deeper i get into this, the more i want this lifestyle change more than ever... a lifestyle that involves, exercise...healthy eating, training, competition, PEOPLE , amazing people who never would have crossed paths with you until that one competition or you have the same trainer, or same dietician.....whatever!!
but i almost ask how did i not do this?? How did i not know....well because it is not the "next big thing" but it really is...because there are SOOOOO many men and women involved in this process...IT is the big thing, and will be....as long as there are people out there who want to better themselves and show themselves as wonderful as they can be...
so....why did i get into bodybuilding.... because something brought me to it....it was meant to happen....and i am a strong believer in things happening for a reason....the timing couldnt be more perfect....
and you know what else....
I AM HAPPY.....and i dont think many people in the world can say it genuinely....
Friday, April 27, 2012
Crisis over
Freaked out last night but no biggie.... My progress is still good and I still feel motivated to keep moving forward...
Confessions of a Food Cheater
so today i was doing really good so far.....all kinds of temptation thrown at me today.....
starting with a going away luncheon.... i was good i brought my tuperware to the restaurant....people thought it was weird...whatever....
2nd go ..... My boss wife is a baker extrordinaire and i mean EVERYTHING she makes tastes good! bypassed on that...by actually having my meal i was supposed to have anyway!
3rd go was getting my hair braided and 4 hrs with no meal...thats where i messed up and i was hurrying home and i stopped to get something that shall not be named however...i induldged...i cheated!
Now was it worth it?...no.....was it necessary most likely?...i was at the point of starving just because it had been 4-5 hrs past my meal and i felt i needed to eat rather than starve before bed.....still not a good thing..
however i confessed the "sin" we move on....i continue to work hard and use as a stepping stone...
no one is perfect and especially when it comes to dieting but instead of the hang up that most of the time we get...
CONFESS and move on!
Which i have done to all of you ......so there you go
starting with a going away luncheon.... i was good i brought my tuperware to the restaurant....people thought it was weird...whatever....
2nd go ..... My boss wife is a baker extrordinaire and i mean EVERYTHING she makes tastes good! bypassed on that...by actually having my meal i was supposed to have anyway!
3rd go was getting my hair braided and 4 hrs with no meal...thats where i messed up and i was hurrying home and i stopped to get something that shall not be named however...i induldged...i cheated!
Now was it worth it?...no.....was it necessary most likely?...i was at the point of starving just because it had been 4-5 hrs past my meal and i felt i needed to eat rather than starve before bed.....still not a good thing..
however i confessed the "sin" we move on....i continue to work hard and use as a stepping stone...
no one is perfect and especially when it comes to dieting but instead of the hang up that most of the time we get...
CONFESS and move on!
Which i have done to all of you ......so there you go
Thursday, April 26, 2012
Bedtime is the best time.....
So now that i been working out.... i lovvvvveee bedtime..the best part of the day...where i can be where i wanna be when i wanna be and no physical pain required accept getting comfy....i appreciate it soooo much more... because sleep either makes for a good day or a bad day.... for your next day of working out....tommorow is less painful...only cardio and thats a break to me!! ..
but enuff bout tommrow, its my favorite time...bedtime..
but enuff bout tommrow, its my favorite time...bedtime..
Wednesday, April 25, 2012
Get used to being the center of attention now or later......
This is a big one... you know what is crazy...that regardless of what attention we get it makes us self conscious..its almost like too much positive may make you "concieted" or too much negative will make you insecure about yourself....
Its crazy how many people walk through the gym almost ashamed of being there or appearing "sweaty" or exhausted...shyt thats wut you came to do! Why be anything else...i almost get amazed at people who walk out looking the same as they left in...without showering.... at this point in the game if you didnt give everything to the gym then why go.... since i been training at first I felt like...wow i am one of 3 females in here counting my trainer... which means I feel singled out and it almost feels like an outcast...
but then i thought at the same time....what makes them better off than me..we are all here for the same purpose to change our lifestyle in some shape or form right??? So my presence should not affect a person, however for some it does and you know what...
that is awesome!
because that means there is something about me, most likely good that just affects you in some way, i hope its positive and motivates but if not thats unfortunate.... so when i am in the gym best believe i leave it all on the bench... pushing it ...pushing it because why would you be there? Not to look cute i hope...but fabulous as you are killing it on that chest press or that cable...not to mention the mirrors showing you that you look the part!
I learned to embraced the looks, the omg..the whatever because it means that someone may consider getting on board which i recommend because it is exhilarating...and it only means that there will be a larger crowd of people come competition time in the same boat....so i use the gym to practice... holding my head up...walking with a purpose...because that is what will make you stand out from everyone else...
Its crazy how many people walk through the gym almost ashamed of being there or appearing "sweaty" or exhausted...shyt thats wut you came to do! Why be anything else...i almost get amazed at people who walk out looking the same as they left in...without showering.... at this point in the game if you didnt give everything to the gym then why go.... since i been training at first I felt like...wow i am one of 3 females in here counting my trainer... which means I feel singled out and it almost feels like an outcast...
but then i thought at the same time....what makes them better off than me..we are all here for the same purpose to change our lifestyle in some shape or form right??? So my presence should not affect a person, however for some it does and you know what...
that is awesome!
because that means there is something about me, most likely good that just affects you in some way, i hope its positive and motivates but if not thats unfortunate.... so when i am in the gym best believe i leave it all on the bench... pushing it ...pushing it because why would you be there? Not to look cute i hope...but fabulous as you are killing it on that chest press or that cable...not to mention the mirrors showing you that you look the part!
I learned to embraced the looks, the omg..the whatever because it means that someone may consider getting on board which i recommend because it is exhilarating...and it only means that there will be a larger crowd of people come competition time in the same boat....so i use the gym to practice... holding my head up...walking with a purpose...because that is what will make you stand out from everyone else...
Tuesday, April 24, 2012
Sugar Honey Ice Tea just got real!....
Ok so i been pretty narrow on this journal but today Shit just got real...
My Cleaning lady washed my scale in the dishwasher and its electronic! Not to mention its lightning outside and I didnt know the scale was jacked till i got home......and all i can ask is WHY???????
But after all that...im too tired to be upset lol....so i normally am down to eyeballing things for the weight and protein is already pre weighed and cut so no harm no foul....
man that burned me up....
Ok back to the regularly scheduled program wheeewww!!!...:
So Shoulders and Hamstrings day.... what a exercise...and you know what a trainer is good for too...is accountability.... which is what i want...
the funny thing is no matter how tired i was Annie (my trainer) was like come on....and as much as i wanted to throw a tantrum like a baby i came...no harm no foul right...but she dayum near brought me to my knees ....lol in a good way...not discouraged but still.......today i found my hamstrings...and boy do they hate me now lol....
So two lessons today....dont wash an electronic scale in water and I now know where my hamstring is....
that is all....:
Monday, April 23, 2012
Ok....Training/ Muscle Failure...
What a continous battle! Y'all will hear me say this time and time again...but it is a battle that you may win that day but the next day you are back in the same situation~ now why go there again.... shyt.. yall tell me??? lol...no seriously... because the muscle is "screaming to get out" and the amazing thing is that its a beautiful sight!...
This morning had Cardio at 0 dark 30 for military people or early as hell for civilians, I think i fell asleep on the elliptical but i got it in... no wonder the coffee is ESSENTIAL to this process! I already am not a morning person but I am exercising....awww helll...
Today was also a chest day....although very few exercises seemed like a lifetime of pain...but only because im pushing it to failure...ask Annie (my trainer)....now im to the point where instead of saying "I give up" I say "Failure" because that is the goal right? Yes "preachin to the choir" but yet every day it suprises me each time how i dayum near shit my pants to get that set out....
not to mention humorous how the decline bench was a bit "long for me" my poor feet could barley hold on lol.... in this case for me it was "po little tink tink" (Katt Williams)
Now to rest and start the day again!
This morning had Cardio at 0 dark 30 for military people or early as hell for civilians, I think i fell asleep on the elliptical but i got it in... no wonder the coffee is ESSENTIAL to this process! I already am not a morning person but I am exercising....awww helll...
Today was also a chest day....although very few exercises seemed like a lifetime of pain...but only because im pushing it to failure...ask Annie (my trainer)....now im to the point where instead of saying "I give up" I say "Failure" because that is the goal right? Yes "preachin to the choir" but yet every day it suprises me each time how i dayum near shit my pants to get that set out....
not to mention humorous how the decline bench was a bit "long for me" my poor feet could barley hold on lol.... in this case for me it was "po little tink tink" (Katt Williams)
Now to rest and start the day again!
Finding a Personal Trainer is like....
the search for a mate......we look and we look until we find that connection....we critique them until WE feel they are up to our standards...granted all the while this potential prospect has no idea, this is what is going on in our minds...and we have EVERY RIGHT to do this....all things considered at stake to include injury, our health, time of course (which is valuable to me that is). I have been fortunate, for some reason "the stars are aligned" and i really didnt necessarily need to critique...i only felt a person out but most of the time instinct normally is your first sign...and my instinct is normally pretty on point...granted im a newbie by to reach my goal i consider a trainer up there alongside your best friend. You are sharing your emotions, your personal issues possibly, everything about your "chi" that affects your workout you share and there a bond is established....
I can say that i have found two of my "best friends"/trainers ..and they are awesome! I feel very fortunate to have crossed paths with them ....and Okinawa was the last place i expected to find them...however...you cant help who you "love" (cue the happy music) lol
I can say that i have found two of my "best friends"/trainers ..and they are awesome! I feel very fortunate to have crossed paths with them ....and Okinawa was the last place i expected to find them...however...you cant help who you "love" (cue the happy music) lol
Sunday, April 22, 2012
Rest days..????
ummm definitely an oxymoron....yes its rest however....you can only think about the next workout and how sore you already are that you want to cry.... lol....and there isnt really too much end in sight...oh well...all in a days work... :)
Saturday, April 21, 2012
Another day in the life.....
It is amazing how the body reacts to change in diet, and i am the type of person from the "show me state"....however in this process i have learned that being able to physically see something (a change in muscle/weight loss) doesnt necessarily mean there isnt anything going on....but unfortunately this is what makes MOST folks lose motivation....we need "proof" things work right away instead of believing the process WILL work for you with patience. Now i admit i am ready for the "six pack" to just POP out any minute...like getting your first tooth or something.... lol but im pretty sure that it wont wake me at night and say " six pack has arrived" so i am patient in this process.... but here is stomach view picture....
I initially began at 150.5 (yes included the half) and now am at 144...unfortunately i dont have a really good full body of me being 150 so i just had a picture of my stomach pre diet.... the changes are noticable! the more i look at it the more i feel like there is my result... not to mention, emotionally i feel good.... what more can you ask for...
With this journal/blog, whoever follows will get just about every step of the way, the good the bad the ugly....including the process of slimming now granted 150 may not seem like a lot but at 4 '11 and 3/4( yes get it right lol) ... that is obese...dayum near overweight bmi...unacceptable! I would rather be extremely short and kick @ss then possibly have health issues early on...
today is to good health and of course us little people
Friday, April 20, 2012
You know you had a good workout when....
at a moments notice, no matter what your doing.... no matter how critical including cooking/driving you are ready for "instant nap" and i say instant because literally you blink and you are asleep! lol.....
I pushed myself to "muscle failure" by myself without my trainer Annie however...i could hear her voice in my head....so i pushed it! Im proud and sleepy all at the same time....
So before i instantly sleep on this computer i am going to my bed! :) (and yes it is only 3 in the afternoon)
talk to yall tommorow!
I pushed myself to "muscle failure" by myself without my trainer Annie however...i could hear her voice in my head....so i pushed it! Im proud and sleepy all at the same time....
So before i instantly sleep on this computer i am going to my bed! :) (and yes it is only 3 in the afternoon)
talk to yall tommorow!
Aching Body
You know what i realized, that its easier to do workouts the wrong way.....and get nothing then to do it the right way....because right= pain.... but at the same time wrong is working out the wrong body part and potential injuries....hmmm how do i choose?? :)
If i want success i choose of course doing correctly...unfortuntately my body is making me pay for it...but i have put myself in the mindset that the pain is literally the muscle "screaming" to get out...show its self... (yes i made it almost a being) however....its easier to put a goal on workouts....so in my case... i see the bicep while doing arms...shit come out! show your face! hahahaha.... it only means closer to my goal and closer to those same biceps seen by many when i compete....definintely want that muscle out there on display... how else can i see the fruits of my labor... and human beings ( no matter who you are) normally want to physically see results of their hard work...not just exercise but school, relationships....why work hard at reading a book and doing homework with out seeing your knowledge expand as you work on one assignment to the next?
Good workouts= very good nights sleep which i can always appreciate!
If i want success i choose of course doing correctly...unfortuntately my body is making me pay for it...but i have put myself in the mindset that the pain is literally the muscle "screaming" to get out...show its self... (yes i made it almost a being) however....its easier to put a goal on workouts....so in my case... i see the bicep while doing arms...shit come out! show your face! hahahaha.... it only means closer to my goal and closer to those same biceps seen by many when i compete....definintely want that muscle out there on display... how else can i see the fruits of my labor... and human beings ( no matter who you are) normally want to physically see results of their hard work...not just exercise but school, relationships....why work hard at reading a book and doing homework with out seeing your knowledge expand as you work on one assignment to the next?
Good workouts= very good nights sleep which i can always appreciate!
Another Challenge....
Well on to the next challenge, which exists in all things outside of bodybuilding included.... "Willpower"
Daily, Im acknowledging this is the lifestyle I want and confirming it by living it. It is difficult, i will tell you....but i take it one day at a time...
Feeling the desire to want to eat all the things you know will make a positive into a negative ... i.e. cheating on your diet, no exercise.... no motivation...
The more i do this, the more i realize, its a reason i entered into this, and no one forced it, I accepted the challenge on my own. When i get to my "moments of weakness" where i almost feel like i want to take a step back i remind myself that i am only hurting me.. definitely felt an obstacle today...as much as i enjoy going aways with all you can eat buffets putting myself in the situation wouldnt help with me being so early in the game....unfortunately there are many more occasions, wont be the first and may not be the last...
I only can remind myself that i am not doing this for them...i am doing this for me!
Daily, Im acknowledging this is the lifestyle I want and confirming it by living it. It is difficult, i will tell you....but i take it one day at a time...
Feeling the desire to want to eat all the things you know will make a positive into a negative ... i.e. cheating on your diet, no exercise.... no motivation...
The more i do this, the more i realize, its a reason i entered into this, and no one forced it, I accepted the challenge on my own. When i get to my "moments of weakness" where i almost feel like i want to take a step back i remind myself that i am only hurting me.. definitely felt an obstacle today...as much as i enjoy going aways with all you can eat buffets putting myself in the situation wouldnt help with me being so early in the game....unfortunately there are many more occasions, wont be the first and may not be the last...
I only can remind myself that i am not doing this for them...i am doing this for me!
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